Thursday, November 27, 2008
Okay, really.. It's true. I really wanna cry now. Really.. I don't know why, maybe i know why but don't know how 2 say. I think is everything in my life? I don't know!! Argh. I think my tears rolling down now. I just want to cry..
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Ytd was fun lorr. Kelvin, Aloysius, Klement,Joanne and her bro, Jonathan and me went to Pasir ris park. Went to have fun actually and I really enjoyed it. Thanks Kelvin. Then I met kelvin's friend who has the same chinese name as me. Lols . Both of us were like, huh? Why our names de same? Hahas, they then went to rent bike. Poor Aloy and me. We did not know how to ride so we head back to where we settle. Kelvin then taught me how to fly kite. Okay, so i fly the kite. It was up high de lorr, when Kelvin helped me. But then l8r the kite just dropped down. How sad.
Today orchestra was damn tired. I mean, I woke up at 8 plus to prepare for sch to help Mr Seah with e nyaa. Then he treat us lunch. Wait, it's not for free. We need to work for him for 10 assignments, no way man. Lols . Then rush for co. Okay, i was very sleepy then when Mr Lim called " vibraphone" I kana shocked. I was in my dreamland i think. Ena was funny. She really fell asleep and then Mr Lim called her and she was there sleeping. I called her several times b4 she woke up saying "huh? What thing?" Lols .
I don't feel like writing le. Just had a argument with mom. Not really argument but, I donnoe how to say. She's not being reasonable lorr, i think so lahh. Anyway, it's just a trivial thing and she's just nagging away. Alright, I didn't talk back. I just kept my mouth shut and think that i'm mute. Okay, I know it's bad to say that but.. I'm always the one who's wrong even though i did nothing. Really, she once accused me of smth and then when she realised she made a mistake, she didn't apologise and just take it as if nth has happened. Haix.. Nvm. This is not as hurtful as what she said to me. Don't feel like saying it again, if not l8r i cry. Hahas.
Okay, I really don't feel like writing le. I mean just now she kept.. then i now no mood to write le. Shall continue again. My mood now really very bad. Like today, I got manii things to tell my mom, but I decided not to tell her. Oh, I also havent tell her abt the minor accident tt i had on the bus. So long le, nvm. She will just say " So? Nothing happened so nvm" I can guess it. Haix..
Sometimes, I wonder she really meant those things he said to me. Not the one that I guess, another one. Not sure if you guys know. Maybe it's true. I even wrote it for my chinese compo exam lorr. Okay, I really gtg now. I'll be home alone tmrw until noon. Guess I'll be bored then. Nothing to do at home and it's scary to be alone.
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Monday, November 24, 2008
Back in action again! Lols . Ytd went to cp to meet klement, aloy, joanne tan, jes and ying zhuang. Bought the cake and present for li jun. Wanted to surprise her but I thik she knows it lorr. While making our way to her hse, i realised that we had no lighter, ( happened while we celebrated wiky's bday). Told jes and went to her hse to get one.
Siia lahh, we can't light up the candles lehhs, cos lighter no oil. is it called oil? Then call li jun down and celebrate with her. The cake taste great except for the white chocolate. Too sweet although i love white chocolate. Actually I hate chocolates lorr.
Then, all of us go doodle klement and aloysius's face. Hahas, I go doodle his face then he ran, but ran into a dead end. Lols . You shld have seen his face, funny lo.
After cele, went to rulang pri to support my china frenzs. Walao, damn far lehhs. Waited for them like 1/2 hour. They won a gold and bronze award lehhs. At least their efforts were paid off mahhs.
I dreamt of my shi fu last night. Cos ytd I went to look for him but the gates were not opened. So maybe he knows that so I dreamt of him ba. I want to see him actually, want to know how he's doing now. He shld be alright ba. Pls let him be alright. Haix..
Dont feel like writing le, shall stop here. Au revoir. =]
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Went to sch ytd for student leader meeting to prepare for sec 1 orientation. Actually I was playing around all the time. I arrived there late because of the bus ( i can't catch the timing of the morning bus, argh!) Mdm Halimah was there scolding, not really scolding but just like you know, her voice is kinda louder. Luckily I was not scolded. Then suddenly she called my name and said " Darunee! Go to 1E3 and be the class i/c for class facilitator for that class" I was shocked siia, thought she wanna scold me for being late.
Then went down play games, fun siia ( I think I still like kid siia). Jeslyn cried. I was taken aback then went to console her. I see her cry I also scared. She seems to be under a lot of stress. I also scared lehhs. I scared I can't maintain the discipline in that class lorr. Haix, know what? I just realised that i'm the only sec 2 C.F for that class. The rest are sec 1s. Means, I've got set a good example. Oh my, not easy job lehhs. I scared the next one who's crying is me lorr.
Got a lot of programmes coming up. Not sure if mom allows me to attend anot. Oh ya, Kelvin havent sms me the time yet, how to meet him? LOLS. One week has just passed. Although fast, I think that I learnt many things within this week. Hahas. I'm still thinking whether to go for the gathering with chen hao on mon. I scared my mom scold. Haix.. Shall see first ba horr. Maybe tmrw then tell him.
Nothing to say le. Unless smth extraordinary happens. LOLS. Au revoir. =D
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Hey, I wanna tell you that it's impossible for us to be together de. I mean I told you since primary sch le, so I cant understand abt asking me out. Sorry.. I'm really sorry..
Today orchestra learn chan ge. Quite nice the song and I managed to learn it. Hahas, initially was difficult. But slowly, I learnt how to play the vibraphone le. Yeah! First day after camp ended. I'm still feeling sad. Cos like the fun is all gone and emptiness( is there this word) filled my heart. Haix.. But I still kept in touch with some of them. Really enjoyed myself lorr.
My mom asked whether want go back my Thailand anot, the place where my father is in. I did not know what to say cos.. Those who knows me will know why de. I just kept quiet, but I think I'm not going. I mean, there's no point of me going back. Eight years is not short. It'll be longer.
Tomorrow Agus going back indo and he told me to write that I'm happy he's going back. And I wrote now. So no one will nag at me le. Haha.. jk..=]
Honestly, I have nothing to say le. I now chatting with someone so don feel like writing more le. Hahas. Mybe bext time.
Au revoir.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Today was the last day of camp. I couldn't bear to leave, it's fun there. I think that it's a pity that Clarice could not make it. I don't want to leave, I wanna stay there. Made many new friends there and it's really fun. Smth ridiculous. Li jun and I went to the camp on the second day and we lost our way. We alighted the bus too early and it's abt 8 smth back then. We searched the whole area also cant find the place lorr. We walked until 11.30 then we gave up le. Walked for about 3 hours siia.
Someone told me smth today and I was actually shocked, but not totally cos I think I know it beforehand le. I also don noe how I know but i just noe. Li jun also know but I believe she wont tell de. We learnt how to conduct today. I really wanna go up and conduct de, but then I'm scared so I cast aside that thought. Now regret le. Haix.. Don be like me my juniors.
I like no mood to write lehhs. Got alot of things to say de, but suddenly like no more.Haix.. nvm, tmrw then I continue if I have the time to and whether I can anot. Tmrw gonna be a long day again. Got to go now. Sleep tight everyone! Hahas.. Au revoir. =D
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Hellos! Sch holiday now, so happy.. Can rest at home and no homework to do!!! But mon, tue and wed got camp, haix.. must go until upper bukit timah there so far siia.. Sorry that i neglected my blog for donno how mani hundreds and thousands day. I was too lazy to write anithing.
I just had a talk with someone, that person was very unhappy with me. I knew that that person was unhappy with me, so I asked that person why unhappy. Then that person said that i like to act. Oh, I was hurt actually when that person scolded me and said that i sux totally. But as we go on with our conversation, that person told me more things. I 'm not sure whether that person still hates me anot, but whatever the answer is, I'll nv hate that person. I don't want to have that feeling again, cos it's terrible. I don wanna let my emotions control me cos when u hate someone, u'll get angry when u see that person. So i told that person that i wont hate that person and I will treat that person as my friend. Today will, in the future i will too. I did not use he or she becos I did not want to expose that person's identity. That person said that that person will not feel angry when see me again.
I was actually wondering, am I someone who likes to act or is it that person's point of view? I really wanna know the ans. I mean, am i really that bad? Nvm, sometimes things are better when u dont know them. Same goes to my past. The very past. Hahas, some might noe what i'm saying, some might not. Aniwae, i just listened to the graduation song. I am curious to know what will happen to me when i graduate from this sch? Will anyone hate me or will I have a peaceful path after that? No one knows the future exactly, but whatever it is, I will still have to go overcome it.
I got to go now. To make sense out of what that person told me. Aniwae, wish that person good luck and hope that person wont hate or angry with me anymore. That person will not know that i wish for that person cos that person do not know that i have a blog and none of you guyys knows who that person is. If u noe, come and tell me in sch? But u'll nv noe. So that person, I kept my promise isn't it? I did not tell anyone at all. =D