Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Hellos! Did not blog for a couple of days. Hehe.. Too lazy and tired to. Just had steamboat for dinner. Damn delicious siia. Mom's a great cook, wonder if I can be like her when i grow up. Haha, my cousin and I were like fighting over the same food lor. Haha, i know i'm being childish and shld have give in to him, but i don't want to. Then i fought again with him for chicken wing. Haha, too bad he can't have it. He nearly vomited when having dinner. Luckily he didn't cos I was sitting just right beside him. Lols.
Use the com whole day liao, my eyes hurt. Nevermind, don't feel like switching it off. I was rather unhappy today cos in the morning my mom vent her anger on me. I knew the reason why she was unhapppy so i let her vent. But after that I really can't take it anymore and I talked back to her. I know that i shouldn't have done that but... forget it. That's why i put unhappy in my msn pm. Jj neo and jacob asked me why but i said nothing about it.
I'm getting pretty fed up with Amaths. I spent the whole afternoon doing 5 questions man. I wonder how am I going to finish up in my exams. Thank you Berlinda! She taught me a few and i knew how to do liao. Hehe
I wonder if ming li, eugene, li jun and nassim read my mail a not. I need them to read it by today siia, if not they won't know what to do for the thingy. Haix.. Feeling very tired and stress now. Sian, tmrw sch start liao. Haha, my korr and I said this thing too. True what, but i still can relax a liitle, he can't. O levels liao, don't work hard he die ar, still say wanna get 10 points and below.
His chinese get A2 lor, still say not good. I can get that i happy liao lo. Maybe I'll get B3 then die liao. Cannot continue with higher chinese. No no no, must think on the brighter side. Just like my 24 hour councellor said ," don't sigh, cannot give up" Jiayou Darunee!
My hands very tired liao, type too long liao. Think i'll stop here now. No mood to continue anyway. Au revoir, see ya tmrw. =D
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Hey, I'm really totally stressed-up ! I don't want to study anymore. I just don't want to study le. Sec 3 is so stress. Hate it forever and I hate all the subjects that i'm taking now. But it's the path that i wanna take ... ... and ... ... Forget about it. I don't wish to talk much. I'm going insane soon ! Amath, pure sciences ! Everything in my life ! Hate it hate it hate it ! Argh !
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Wow, I had been using the com for more than 3 hours liao le lor. My eyes so pain siia. Aiya, help miss lee find the pics lor, but i finally finished liao. Haha, then Yu Xuan talked to me. Haix, so tired today. I'm feeling very cold again lehs. Die liao lah, everytime i feel cold mean i'm gonna fall sick. I just recovered not long ago siia.
Today i'm really very tired and Jacob bring me around the bush. He just won't tell me who's the girl in his mind. Nevermind, I'm gonna find out on my own and one day, he'll definetely ( is this spelling correct? ) say you're right. Haha.. Okay, too tired to continue le, eyes so pain. Will be back on tuesday. =D Au revoir
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Ytd was the most tiring day for me. Not physically ( is that how you spell it? ) but mentally. I did Amath at tuition and honestly speaking, I don't know what my tutor Ray was talking about half the time. He was teaching something about the basics but not goona be tested in exams and for goodness sake, I can't even master my basics, how am I going to score?
Went back to grandma's house then and on the way back, I really feel like crying cos I don't know how to do the questions and I've got to hand it up to Ray next lesson. Oh shit.. Whatever. Opened the door and my uncle asked me go down to the basement to his car to take the otah. What? I can't go down to the basements at night, besides it's so creepy down there. And I told him no, i can't. And here's what he said " I'm so angry with your cousin now and you don't want to help me this small thing. Okay, fine, don't go then don't go lor. " What lah, I'm already so upset over my studies le and then he still scold me. Like my fault siia, is he forgot to take ma. Whatever, and I went down and i cred in the lift and basement. On my way up, i stopped crying, and kept laughing to make myself look normal but my eyes were still swollen so forget about it. Went home and just ate my dinner.
Mom asked me why i looked so angry and I said nothing, just tired. But actually it's not that. I took the train home and watched tv until 11.30pm. I wanted to cry but i don't know why, whenever i'm in my room, I just can't cry. It's like something's stopping me. Whatever it is, today, I'm feeling better cos Ms Ho was in the class kept making me laugh. I love Ms Ho forever! She's the best english teacher I'ver ever had and whenever I'm sad, the moment I hear her jokes, I would laugh and laugh and laugh. She's really very good.
Everytime on msn always talk to Jacob de, he's like my 24 hour counsellor lor. Someimes I feel like I'm bothering him lor. Haha, he wanna take law siia, used to be what i wanted. Anyway, i got to go now. 5 more mins and I'll be leaving my mom's office so got to pack first. I'll be back like maybe 2 days l8r? Hehe, got to rush out hw le. Haix, sian lor. Au revoir. =D
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Today had Amaths lesson again and I really wanna cry lor. I don't know how to do the questions and then the boys sitting ard me all know how to do lor. I feel like an idiot lor, ppl know i don't know. Honestly, I nearly broke down when doing Amaths. Ms Yue gave us two questions to do and we took an hour to complete it. Don't know how am i going to cope with the exams. Haix...
Now, going to twelve le and I'm still doing my hw. What the? I'm so tired le. I don't want to study anymore. I'm so tired and stress siia. Forget about it, even if I complain for another thousand times it's still the same. I still gotta study. Alright, I shall end here becos I'm really sleepy and tired now and the only thing in my mind is to finish up my chinese and go to bed. I can't wait to go to bed. Okay, see ya guys. Au revoir. =D
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Hi guys, just to say beforehand, I won't be blogging as often as I used to be. I've been so busy in school and my studies that I don't even have time for sleep. Haix, how I wish that I won't be so stress and everything. Well, it's not just being stress alone that matters to me, my relationship with my mom has not been good good recently. Just like today, I met her at compass point then go home together ma, then we were talking and talking and the next moment, we were quarreling and she went her way and I walked my way home. It's just over trival stuffs but she just doesn't understands why I want it.
I'm starting to hate home, I mean, I come home, eat then quarrel, upset, do homework and sleep. What this lah? Everyday quarrel? We are both so stubborn until ... ... I really feel like crying. I don't want to study, I don't want to come home and I want to stay in school. It's the only place where you'll see me laughing all the time cos with, jeslyn, mei yi, li jun, joanne, jarvis and xavier my di. They are always there for me even Jarvis entertain me. Like today, I went to his class after sch and we were there talking until 5pm. I didn't feel like going home so I stayed there.
If I really break down, then what shld I do? My tears are whelming up in my eyes and the words are getting blur. I remembered when I was young and how my mom treated me. She's like so caring. But as I grow older, I'm starting to hate the situation that I'm in now ( only some of you knows ). Sometimes, I feel that I really don't deserve in this situation okay. I know the reason why I'm in this situation and it's just that ... ... Whatever, I don't wish to talk about it anymore.
Okay, I've got to start my work now, my emaths hw and my revision for Amath. I don't know what Ms Yue say lor during lesson time, I only managed to catch a little bit, but not too much, so I've got to do revision, or else I'll have to drop le lehs. Okay, don't say so much le, I go bathe now then do le. See ya around. Au revoir ... ...
P.S. I don't think about it.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Okay, I know my blog's dead for like days or weeks but i've got reasons okay. I got to help out at the sec 1 orientation and i came home late and got to prepare myself for the next day activity. Plus, I was ill on wed, thur and fri so how could you expect me to blog when i'm sick? Haha, I'm not going to talk about the sec 1 orientation cos it's over for so long. All I had to say is that I had a great time with them especially Jarvis and Yu Xuan cos they always quarrel in class lor. I also had a great working experience with all the cfs and gm like dennis, wiky and the other two girls ( sorry I had forgotten your name ).
Started on my Amath and my gosh, it's so diff. Maybe because I missed the first two lessons but luckily, I managd to catch up but I don't know if I really know how to do a not. Physics was alright and I missed my first chemistry lesson on thur. Argh! They go lab leh, then I don't know where to sit siia. Tmrw got chem lesson l8r malu siia. Forget it, it's gonna be okay and I know i'm reassuring myself. Well, at least when I have problems with my maths I still have someone to ask at home and I did ask okay.
Missed my first chem test last thur, well it wasn't really a test but more of to see where our standards were and I'm telling you, I think I'm gonna fail. I had forgotten almost all the sec 2 work and just now I revised, I just couldn't get any of it into my head. Wow, that's gonna be a big new year present for me, failing my first test. Great ... ...
Honestly, I was rather disappointed when Jarvis and Xavier weren't in red house. They are like my entertainment, I mean they make me happy almost everyday. Xavier's so cute and Jarvis like everyday making fun of me lor. Haha, but at least they keep me happy. How I wish I can be in their class for the whole year lor.
Alright, I got nothing much to say le, got to back to study my chem again. That's gonna be boring. Study's so hard, can I stop for the time being? Haha, alright, see ya guys later. Au revoir. =D
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Wow, today's real tired man. Woke up at 6 am and then the bus 83 so crowded. Reached school and everything's so messy I think, but overall we still made it! That's a good news isn't it? Lols, took 1E3 and their class so quiet. Wonder if I can really break their ice next monday. Something I really wanna say lor but I think I better don't. It's gonna hurt a lot to tt person if I say.
Did class deco and sch. cheer and ice breakers. The guy call Jarvis damn funny siia. Kept going against me, still call me shorty. Argh! Then told wikt cos he beside me ma, then he laugh siia. You good lor wiky ang. Nevermind, short then short lor. Not I want to be short de ma. But then Jarvis.. Argh!
Now msning with Jacob and ZY abt this sunday's plan. Haven't inform jes and li jun what time movie end then meet them. Lols, mom's like nagging at me about going out just when sch started. Okay, today I'm really tired, I wanna go slp now. Jacob, remember to alarm me on sunday. If not I late not my prob! Okay, got to wash up now. See ya guys on sunday. Au revoir.. =D
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Happy new year everyone! It's a brand new year now so I think everything shld start afresh isn't it? Lols, tmrw need to go sch liao. I can't imagine what will happen in school tmrw lor and I can't believe that my holidays are over le. I mean, all of us got to get back to our sch life; wake up early and prepare for tests and exams. Haix... ... But there's no choice ma.
Had a hair cut today, shld be funny tmrw. I bet the rest will laugh at me ba. It's not weird but I'm not used to it. My hair... Tmrw sch start today cut hair, last minute siia. Then had my lunch and stuffs. I'm having a real bad mood these few days. Honestly, I don't wish to be like this but I just can't control it. I can't say it out cos it will be a big mistake if I do.
I shall end here cos there's sch tmrw and it's 12 am sharp now. Wow, cool. Alright, got to go now. Nothing to talk much actually so shld see ya guys tmrw in sch. Have a good night anyway ( I bet I'll have nightmares tonight ). Au revoir. :)
