my life, my memories

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Nothing much to say today. Got back my results .... well, didn't do very well. I've sort of expected it cos' I did not work hard for it. I mean, because I've been failing, I think I've given up luh. I know I should not but I just did. Lols, what am I talking about? Mr Tan talked to me lor, aiya, he shouldn't have. He come then I cry. What I'm angry at is my chinese. Walao eh.. Forget it. Don't wanna say liao. Got to go now. Au revoir.

P.S. I'll be taking back my amath, ss and geog tmrw. Wish me all the best. No confidence in Amath at all. =[

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Yeah! My exams are finally over! =D But tmrw and thurs will get back results le leh. Confirm will cry de lor. I'm 100% sure that I'll fail my Amaths. Well, on second thoughts, I don't think I have the rights to cry. First, I did not study for the paper and second, I've sort of given up on that paper. I mean, I kept failing and the feeling's so.... so... I don't know.

Sometimes, I wish that I don't have to study at all. Why is my life so ordinary? Why can't itbe extrordinary? Haix, my only wish for now is to pass all sub (except amaths, cos it's no chance liao). My physics not good too. Can I start all over again? Aiya, why am I talking about all these things eh?

Listening to kiss the rain now. How I wish I know how to play this song. It's so peaceful and nice. Sometimes when I find it hard to cry, I'll listen to it and the next moment, I'll find myself crying. Haha... =D I wish that my uncle will buy me a piano when we moved house. I wish... I wish for many things in my life you know, but all the things that I wish... are... =(

My life, my journey, my future... It all seems so blur. I can't see what's in front of me, neither can i see what are my past. I kept repeating my mistakes.

Aiyo, what's happening to me today? Lols, suddenly, many things came to my mind, haha. I also not sure what to say. How I wish everyday will be like Saturday. See, I'm wishing again. Argh. Feeling sick now. Having cough and a little fever. My throat hurts. How I wish that I can sleep forever.. Argh, I'm wishing again. Lols, i think i better go now. Don't want to wish again. Au revoir..

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Mommy and me! =D

Ena playing my xylophone.

=D!

Why jeslyn join us?

Non-GO member get out! Haha...

Hellos! I'm back, but today der post will be short. Having exams now, so stress. Honestly, I'm stress up. Not enough time to study and here I am wasting my time here undating my blog. Same as korr la. But at least, I used only 2 hours. Just now he tell me he use the whole morning liao lor. Lols, still dare to say, o levels liao leh. Haha..

Just now went to look at the JCs, only managed to list out six that i think, I repeat, I think I can go in. All got table tennis der. Haha, I only la, I'm adicted to it. Well, i won't deny the fact that I am but I'll try my best to do well. I only that my mid year won't do well because I've wasted a lot of time doing useless things. So, I'm going to strive harder for EYE.

I really want to play table tennis again ( although I just played the day before ). Haix.. Revising geog half way then headache. No mood to study liao lor. Haix.. Korr left msn liao, then no one to chat with me. Why is studying so diff? Whatever it is, I'll always look forward to saturday! But... sat is morning not at night. Why not at night? Then miss the chances to see him play. Told uncle to book at night don't want, want in the morning..

Anyways, got to go now. Got to continue to study le, tmrw going out to study too. Haha, hardworking right? I know that, you don't have to say. =P

Au revoir! =D

Friday, May 1, 2009

Hey guys, I'm back blogging again. Quite emo today. I'm scared of exams. My phobia.. Thought that today's table tennis lesson with coach can help me to relax but it's no use. I was happy that I learned new skills today but somehow I don't really feel that happiness.

Don't know when can I learn from coach again. He said next week he's gonna teach me new things and sort of have a match with me eh, but next week exam liao, don't think mom's gonna let me go. Honestly, I don't know what's happening to me. Something's just not right. My mind, my emotions, everything about me.

Uncle said he's not going to book table tennis from 6 to 8pm. As in he's still going to book on sat, but not that timing, which also means, I can't see him again. Haix, uncle said that timing's too late so he's going to book an earlier timing which is 10 to 12 nn. Oh my, what am i suppose to do? Haix.. I really love table tennis but I don't know when my mom's going to ask to stop playing. I'm afraid she's going to end it like how she ended my life with music.

I'm not always so lucky to find something that interest me. Music is something that I'll never forget because I'll always remember how it brightens up my life and how it change my life. Now, my life of music is gone, and table tennis is my life. I don't want to stop my lessons.. I want to continue, at least till I finished my college life. But my mom doesn't want me to play table tennis. Not totally but kinda don't really approve it.

Don't know what to say now... I hope that there's someone whom will always be with me no matter what and be there when i need someone to talk to. I also hope that that person is someone who is willingly to pick up my phone no matter how late it is because I'm someone who always think back during the night time. How I wish that ... ... ... ... my life is simple.